And she spoke words That'd melt in your hands And she spoke words Of wisdom.
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the utter silence that you're giving me is driving me nuts. :|

I'm guilty enough already. & you ain't helping one bit.
i know i won't get rid of this feeling until National Day is over. :|

I've been thinking a lot during my "me" time.
Mainly when I'm not trying to cram my head with information nor run rounds around the track in a vain bid to rid myself of all these thoughts.
Hoping just hoping that I'll tire myself to the extent where I'll just stop thinking about this all together. :|

its bothering me that i was so prejudiced about this sort of thing.
no, worse. EVERYONE'S prejudiced about this.
& yes I'm ashamed to say that my concern for how others regard this affected my decision.
Also, your absolute flightiness is worrying me.
Wouldn't i be just another girl?
what difference would it be to you?
but it matters to be.
it matters BIG TIME.

i cannot afford to have my feelings played out.
& i don't know if i can take the hurt & pain that is to come.

i am doing exactly as you said i was.
Rejecting something before i even started.
& I'm doing this purely out of fear.
100% fear that I'll be miserable. :|

Selfish i know. But i just hope you'll understand. :|
once more.
or i fear that our friendship would have to be jeopardised
for good.

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I’ve been waiting for my dreams
To turn into something
I could believe in
And looking for that
Magic rainbow
On the horizon
I couldn’t see it