[edit] you told me you wanted to be my listening ear and all, but its been quite some time and nothing came. :/ i don't know, i guess i feel slightly sad that you weren't there to offer words of comfort. & now even if you do, i don't think it matters anymore. [/edit]

I'm an effing hypocrite and i am SICK and TIRED of myself.

all i want to do right now is just take a f*cking stick and whack myself unconscious.

wrong wrong WRONG

all i ever f*cking do is ALWAYS wrong.

when the shit do i do the right thing????

never.

daddy, I'm sorry that I've let you down once again. :/

you saying that its okay only makes me feel as though you've stabbed me in the heart and pulled the knife out.

I'd rather you scold me upside down than give me this treatment.

i don't deserve your understanding scold me please or I'd probably resort to scolding myself.

this is so effing screwed right now.

i just want to die.

maybe if i went outside and walked i would get knocked down by a car.

its okay. the cars all seem intent on knocking me down anyway.

whats with that crazed woman in the black car and that time i nearly got ran over by 3 cars.

its always my fault isn't it?

stupid shit assed me who keeps messing up and never gets anything done right.

homework, studies, being neat, following the rules, whatever.

I'd always mess up.

well that's me. the stupid git who is always wrong.

if I'm gone its just something less to worry about isn't it?

all i can do is cause worry for others and its starting to piss me off big time.

& to the f*cking bastard/bitch who took my phone and won't return it?

i F*CKING WANT YOU TO DIE.

stupid gullible and naive me had always thought that people in this world had some good in them. that there was no such thing as pure evil because there is always a conscience in people. no matter what they say i believe that its in them.

but now i see i was wrong. everything that people had been telling me about the world being a dark and evil place was right after all.

great. another thing for me to be wrong about.

This is just so effed up.

My faith, believes, everything which i thought i could depend on has seemingly vanished.

i don't even want to think about anything.

just want to be numb inside out.

& get out of the wretched house where that friggin bitch tore down my morale with her effing words.

where's the love huh? I looked at you straight in the eye throughout your talking and refused to let a single bit of emotion show on my face. i will NOT let you win.

& i don't care if it feels as though everything inside is just tearing to let loose. i will NOT succumb to your f*cking words. so just piss off and leave me be you insensitive moron.

[edit] you told me you wanted to be my listening ear and all, but its been quite some time and nothing came. :/ i don't know, i guess i feel slightly sad that you weren't there to offer words of comfort. & now even if you do, i don't think it matters anymore. [/edit]

I'm an effing hypocrite and i am SICK and TIRED of myself.

all i want to do right now is just take a f*cking stick and whack myself unconscious.

wrong wrong WRONG

all i ever f*cking do is ALWAYS wrong.

when the shit do i do the right thing????

never.

daddy, I'm sorry that I've let you down once again. :/

you saying that its okay only makes me feel as though you've stabbed me in the heart and pulled the knife out.

I'd rather you scold me upside down than give me this treatment.

i don't deserve your understanding scold me please or I'd probably resort to scolding myself.

this is so effing screwed right now.

i just want to die.

maybe if i went outside and walked i would get knocked down by a car.

its okay. the cars all seem intent on knocking me down anyway.

whats with that crazed woman in the black car and that time i nearly got ran over by 3 cars.

its always my fault isn't it?

stupid shit assed me who keeps messing up and never gets anything done right.

homework, studies, being neat, following the rules, whatever.

I'd always mess up.

well that's me. the stupid git who is always wrong.

if I'm gone its just something less to worry about isn't it?

all i can do is cause worry for others and its starting to piss me off big time.

& to the f*cking bastard/bitch who took my phone and won't return it?

i F*CKING WANT YOU TO DIE.

stupid gullible and naive me had always thought that people in this world had some good in them. that there was no such thing as pure evil because there is always a conscience in people. no matter what they say i believe that its in them.

but now i see i was wrong. everything that people had been telling me about the world being a dark and evil place was right after all.

great. another thing for me to be wrong about.

This is just so effed up.

My faith, believes, everything which i thought i could depend on has seemingly vanished.

i don't even want to think about anything.

just want to be numb inside out.

& get out of the wretched house where that friggin bitch tore down my morale with her effing words.

where's the love huh? I looked at you straight in the eye throughout your talking and refused to let a single bit of emotion show on my face. i will NOT let you win.

& i don't care if it feels as though everything inside is just tearing to let loose. i will NOT succumb to your f*cking words. so just piss off and leave me be you insensitive moron.

SiMin 20 (gawd, im growing old fast.) ♥
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Im a genius at blowing up minor issues. Pretty cynical. Very ironic. Loves being loved. And yet boring to hang around. Adores comforting silence. Keeps to herself like some human-phobic creature. I want to be a journalist & to have my very own Mogget.

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