And she spoke words That'd melt in your hands And she spoke words Of wisdom.
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time: 5:31 PM

i don't know

lately I've been feeling rather moody and listless.
i get all frustrated and annoyed easily.
& at other times i just want to cry.

sometimes i wished that there would be someone there.
for a nice shoulder to lean on
cry on
rely on.

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things between the clique is no longer the same.
it doesn't feel the same.

we're falling apart.
maybe its just me.
but i really feel that it is.

every one's too wrapped up in their own things and lives.
& we've changed.

I'm sure you can't name several things that you're supposed to.
& I'm sure i can't name yours either.

And i'm sorry but i can't bring myself to make it better.
Because the the damage was long unrepairable.

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thank you Jess.
thanks for bothering with someone like me.

i didn't reply cause i was speechless with gratitude by your short simple messages everyday.
just a cheer up was all i needed to carry on with the new day. (:

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i don't want to face the world for now.
i just want to be alone.
i can't think straight.

ha ha I'm such a walking contradiction.
i want someone.
& yet i want to be alone.
Ha ha.

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I couldn't sleep all last night.
tossing and turning.
I couldn't think.

No. I don't want to think. :\
but i can't give up either.
i don't know. :/

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why couldn't i remember anything about you?
i feel happy for you and yet i feel sad.
But somehow i don't feel anything.
because i didn't know you.

is it okay for me to be like this?
to face this soulless person and not feel anything?
Is it okay for me to laugh when I'm supposed to cry?
Is it inhumane of me to be so emotionless?
i don't know.
Maybe i don't want to know.

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don't use God as an excuse to runaway.
Prayers don't solve things magically if you don't do anything.
What crap are you spouting about the holy language.
You know nothing about it.
Stop trying to show off your apparent "dedication" to your religion.
You disgust me.